Friday, July 29, 2005
Thursday, July 28, 2005
Monday, July 25, 2005
Sunday, July 24, 2005
Christianity and the Dark Side ...........
June 5 - Pride
June 12 - Lust
June 19 - Gluttony
June 26 - Greed
July 3 - Envy
July 10 - Anger
July 17 - Sloth
I figured if I were to stay here long enough, I would volunteered my time to babysit the kiddies/babies - they are so so so adorable, chabby & cute :)
Saturday, July 23, 2005
Despite the unbearable cuaca, I still decided to watch my first baseball game @ Padang Raley. The host was 'Sungai Kucing' ( translate from Malay to English ). Bahija tentu bought the shaded ticket lah, finally I sweat :) How's the first baseball game experience ? hmm hmm, I liked the experience, but the game is a bit too slow , not as kat cheong loh .... tried satu kali - cukup liow !!
Friday, July 15, 2005
Thursday, July 14, 2005
I'm into this synchronocity lately, signs are around me ( sometimes ). I think those old ladies reminded me of my sweetest mother. She is changing physically into those old aged woman - she is shrinking, shorter now, face, hands all have more wrinkles now.... When I talked this out with AR, he correctly pointed out that I'm afraid of old woman, fear of them, simply because my mother has been seeing doctors more frequently now - those stress running around fetching her - seeing variuos doctors, plus seeing her touturing herself with all sorts of medicines - scared me. Frankly, I'm in fear. I'm so scared of losing her ..which that day is reaching as we mature in life .... everyday when i wake up brushing my teeth , getting ready for another new day, my mother is ageing for another moment ....She is my best best friend ( even though there are a lot of things she cannot comprehend when I shared with her ....) , but for comfort, for support, for unconditional love - no one on earth can I turn to except her.... she is the most important woman in my life. I'm very close with her, so the fear is natural, recognizing this fear is good. I prayed for wisdom to translate this fear into positive energy - reminded me that I've got to appreciate her more, make her happy, help her to fulfil her wishes, do more simple little things to put a smile on her face - while she's here alive. I simply cannot regret for the rest of my life for not doing things I should have done for her .... my family has different type of challenges, and I reckon my mother has sacrificed her whole life for her kids - I'm where I am now all because of my parent and my family, and of course a lot of good friends around me as well. As I walk along my life journey, collecting all sort of treasures ( sweet and bad memories ) - this is a great reminder to me that my actions/my loves to my mum can only be 'present tense' and not future or past or past perfect tenses .....
We have many things planned, and it is indeed wonderful to have Dockers' Pant here. Last weekend, Bahija worked part time as SF tour guide. Initially, I was so so stress - y leh? coz I'm not local, I don't know the places & roads well leh, yet I was driving 3 person around town wor - since it's their vacation & first trip in SF, of coz I wanted their trip to be a memorable and fun one ..... Mission accomplished, I hoped they enjoyed their trip - On my end, I think I've done the best, and got myself so tired liow .... again, kena pampered my body and my soul , masuking to cave liow :) hehehe
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Saturday, July 09, 2005
So here I am, I’m glad that I had the best of my 3 years so far here. It was that 3 years of Uni time – sort of learned to be independent, learned to cook, earned pocket money, total freedom – explored new environment, met people from all around the world…I've done many things in that short 3 years. It was college honeymoon to me. (Back home too many restrictions liow kuah - being here foreign land - as if nobody knows me - so in a way - it gave me freedom to try things ...haha). Susah-payah worked hard for 1 semester, then party, enjoyed the semester break. Being in this foreign country, had the opportunity to meet international friends – learned some of their culture, met good friends, met 2 nice american families, did cheap sightseeings around a few states, so thrilled first time saw snow (orang tengok tot we gila), experienced coldest weather until my ears, hands almost numb - so painful & cold that all I could do was cried (very cham), made snowman, tried snow boarding, snow skiing, water-skiing, water-tubing, jet-ski, fishing, horse riding in a ranch, pheasant hunting, boating, kayaking, Harley-Davidson’s ride, winter ice-fishing, exposure to church services, experience of being absolutely drunk & high & strengthless, tried and failed in smoking, tried marijuana once, first kiss, 21st birthday, datings, fell in love, bought my own car, numerous chats with leng chai policemen or traffic policemen, sat in the police car, naked walking around in sauna room felt extremely humiliated, visited chippendale, gay bar, nude bar, hooked to late nights parties, beer drinking, kick-stand, volka shots, heart broken, chicken pox on the first day of my final exam – I was quarantine from entering Uni – cried in front of the health doctor – because he refused to let me attend my graduation ceremony – then I decided to subside the virus ( not a good choice – but I was desperato – couldn’t afford to skip my graduation day (it's BIG day for me then) – plus my mum already on her way to my Uni ) – it was such a horrible terrible suffering experience - yet memorable. All in all – my valuable memories. I’m truly thankful to my family for supporting me – without them – I wouldn’t have had this 3 best years of my life so far. Wasn't doing bad things here, to me, they were just part of the life puzzles, tried things wisely - experience - learning - been there, done that kind of thing. If I ever have my next generation, I sure hope they have the opportunity to do something fun on their lives (but then at the back, may be I being parent - will be super kiasu, kiasi, sleepless, freak out - who knows what I would do then , hahaha :P ) .... my memories are my treasure !!
Friday, July 08, 2005
Perhaps you think that your attitude on any particular day depends on the things you experience that day. But actually it is the other way around.
The things you experience do not cause you to have a particular attitude. Instead , the quality and substance of your experiences are what reveal your attitude.
Your attitude is yours to choose. And by choosing your attitude, you can choose the kind of life you live.
Yes, there will be plenty of events coming along that are completely beyond the control of you or your attitude. Yet your attitude will most definitely determine how you experience each of those events.
If your attitude is negative and destructive, you'll find pain, disappointment and dismay in even the most wonderful circumstances. Yet when your attitude is positive, creative, thankful and joyful, you'll find real hope and valuable possibilities in even the most unfortunate events.
Rather than assuming that your attitude is dictated by events, choose to maintain a positive attitude no matter what may come along. By so doing, you'll be choosing a life of real value and meaning.
Lately, Bahija is joyful. I learned to appreciate things - be thankful for just a simple little thing. It truely is a wonderful experience ....slowing down, sitting down, taking time to be appreciative of anything and anyone who comes spice up my life - lighten up my spirit, put a smile on my round face :) I would like to associate this as God blessings .......and His Love !
Thursday, July 07, 2005
Tuesday, July 05, 2005
I just want to list down the places I went today, coz I don't do this thing punya - not my shopping list at all - new to me - and chances of forgeting them - FAST - so just list down here ( may be lain kali I use this list to negotiate with bro-in-law for his favors - haha ). I salute Amerincan, especially on the way they handle customers. When they cannot serve me in one store, they will suggest other alternatives, kindly direct me to their competitors. Some even helped me called up the yellow pages or the next store, helped to get the address or contact info .... geeee - back home - my experience was 'NO, sorry we don't sell this , end with FULL STOP'
2.Central 4Wheel Drive @RC
3.4Wheel parts @ Sac
4.Kragen Auto Part @ FM
5.Truckstuff @ Rville
6.Tognotti's @ Sac
7.Auto recycle streets @ RC ( I amazed loh - the street name is called recycle street - all the car dealers have their recycle stores along this road - isn't this wonderful - make consumer life so easy ) - recycle here means the 'tong chek fok' in cantonese - recycling used old junk cars or accident cars ....
Monday, July 04, 2005
Then today, I did something stupid or kiasu .... u see, most places have sales on July 4th weekend. I realized that things that I bought a week ago, now most of them on sales - aiyuh. I gave a thought and a mini calculation, at the end, I decided to be kiasu, I re-visited the stores, bought another set of things ( this time most of them either USD 10 cheaper or 30% discount lah). I was also lucky, managed to find the same sizes - so there I was, first trip to buy, second trip to return last week's items .....hmmm, I know this is ridiculas, but hor , at the end of the whole troublesome tasks, I saved RM 200 wor ....tu a lot of money leh ...so to me, it is 'dai' loh :P
After the hectic buy & return sessions, 7 pm - drove to Taman Hagan @ RC - wow - huge park - full of people - families, kids, old folks, handicapped folks as well - very riuh-rendah - there was also a carnival ( it's a neat way of spending the holiday with family or friends loh) ..... Here cuaca memang sedap , day time - panas ( which mat salleh suka so much), then by 7pm , the cuaca cools down a lot - super fast - people like Bahija need a jacket liow - so har, again, I said 'cool' weather do the trick, it was so nice sitting or laying on the field, watching, counting stars, listening to the concert, songs ...also smelled orang lain punya BBQ ( most families setup camps - and did their BBQ right at the park). I enjoyed the fireworks :) - I'm glad I made it ( after talking for so many times / years ) , not that I tak pernah seen fireworks, just that I'm longing for the experience loh. The first time I watched fireworks was with my Uni friends @ Disney World, Florida. Second time with Yaya & Chinamo @ DisneyLand, LA. Third time in KLCC @ Red House - with Dragon ( & her family) , AR, Ringgit and other friends from I-kei - that was new year eve .....it was a nice evening - wonderful company, nice fireworks .... Tonight punya also nice , because it was accompanied by loud patriotic songs - when I watched the fireworks - and the songs played out loud - there is this 'patriotic' mode within my heart - it sunk in .....wait a min, I ter-salah liow ( cantonese say 'run dog) - mine shld be Aug 31 lah, hehe.
Well, earlier - I was a bit dissappointed that my Canada trip tak jadi, then Oregan trip also tak jadi - then I said 'things happen for reasons' - haha. It truly is - I spent time with friends, did what a typical American does on Independence Day - 1) Shopping 2) BBQ 3)Fireworks , blissful weekend - and dun forget - saved $200 leh ..... shld be joyful and thankful , kan :)
Sunday, July 03, 2005
Saturday, July 02, 2005
The Art Of A Good Marriage
Happiness in marriage is not something that just happens.
A good marriage must be created.
In marriage the little things are the big things.
It is never being too old to hold hands.
It is remembering to say "I love you" at least once a day.
It is never going to sleep angry.
It is at no time taking the other for granted;
the courtship should not end with the honeymoon,
it should continue through the years.
It is having a mutual sense of values and common objectives.
It is standing together facing the world.
It is forming a circle of love that gathers the whole family.
It is doing things for each other, not in the attitude of duty or sacrifice,
but in the spirit of joy.
It is speaking words of appreciation and demonstrating gratitude in thoughtful ways.
It is not looking for perfection in each other.
It is cultivating flexibility, patience,understanding and a sense of humour.
It is having the capacity to forgive and forget.
It is giving each other an atmosphere in which each can grow old.
It is a common search for the good and the beautiful.
It is establishing a relationship in which the independence is equal, dependence is mutual and the obligation is reciprocal.
It is not only marrying the right partner, it is being the right partner.
~Wilferd A. Peterson
So far, I'm always there for my Rubber Trees' big days. This round, I truly dissappointed one of them - Janice. We've talked about this for a few times, I apologized many times , yet I know the 'sad' , 'kecewa' are there in her heart .....well - i just want to say this - it is the same in my heart as well. I couldn't imagine - after waited for this moment, finally - at this date - I'm far far away - not sharing the joy with you. I'm sure this will remain as a 'scare' or missing piece in her wedding memory ....aiii - betul-betul sorry .... let's try next one - may be I'll be with you welcoming the Little Janice :) Enjoy a fruitful marriage life !!!
Last year July 2 - I also FFK Joey's wedding, he didn't seem happy as well ....aiyuh !!
Yaya - 祝你 生日快乐 !!!! My best wishes for you - those I've IM-ed to you :) Now, Janice and Yaya both have 1 mutual date ...hehehe. Yaya, I found a kaki for you ....my part III
Miss Sanguine - HapPy BiRtHday yeah - July 4th fireworks with you - I'm still hoping one day - we could do it together , kay !
Last year same day now - I arrived here. Exciting moment - because for the first time ever - Kampung Girl got to fly Business Class - then then durian betul-betul runtuh - I also had the luxury of First Class ( long long distance flight - hoo hoo ) - truly a pampered trip - and I'm thankful :) Side effort hor - I started to complain Economy class now lah - so so sin kor - so 'pik', so uncomfortable - oh well - no choice - cost is too high , aiiiii - so accept the reality that I still get to travel yeah :) I didn't recall how I spent my July 4th holiday during my Uni time, was thinking hard - but totally blank. I haven't seen 4th of July Fireworks as well leh after so many years, so many times ..... viola - rusa - I get to watch as many as I want - hahaha ..... cioa !
A Word To Singles
Commit everything...to the Lord...and He will help you. - Psalm 37:5 NLT
When you meet that "someone special," here are 5 questions you should consider:
(1) Is the relationship based on honesty? The Bible speaks about, "Telling each other the truth" (Eph 4:25 CEV). Relationships thrive on openness and trust. When deceit creeps in, it's time to get truthful in a hurry, or call it quits.
(2) Can you be yourself? Paul writes, "Each of us is an original" (Ga 5:26 TM), and "Let's...be what we were made to be" (Ro 12:6 TM). If you feel like you constantly need to reinvent yourself or walk on your tiptoes, you're in the wrong relationship. Wise up! If they disapprove of you now, do you seriously think marriage will improve things?
(3) Is either of you possessive? The Bible says, "Love is...never jealous" (1 Co 13:4 CEV). If one of you can't make a move without the other's permission, it's a red flag, back off!
(4) Have you established physical boundaries? If the relationship ended today would you regret your level of involvement? You may know that the Bible says, "Run...from sexual sin" (1 Co 6:18 NLT), but do you understand why God says He made sex as a commitment specifically for marriage? And why it can otherwise leave you feeling "used?"
(5) Do you plan your time together? Without a specific plan it's easy to get more physically involved than you should. That's why it's good to agree up front as to your boundaries. Listen: "Commit everything...to the Lord...He will help you." Lasting relationships always put God first - always!
Friday, July 01, 2005
Today just isn’t my day – whole day nothing seem to work well for me …..my new team member FFK me for an important meeting– lunch partner FFK me, whole day troubleshooting this network problem – still at stage one ( I memang hate networking – my brain auto shut down whenever I have to deal with network thingy ….aiiii ) …besok dunno how to face it. Anyway, I’m so glad that I watched F.R.I.E.N.D.S just now - laughing out loud. Tonight episode was on Dr Monkey – Chandler and Ross both fighting on who thought of the Dr Monkey’s joke first, hillarious lah sebab I teringat someone – he has Dr title , recently blog dia laku ….hmm hmm, then his nickname also Mah Lou - LOL.
Sometimes ‘waktu siang don’t talk about other people’ - --> AR and myself were chatting on this T, suddenly he pop up. Purposely created IM account – coz I never log on to Yahoo punya. This is an example of why I find certain people irritating.
T: eh, can I have your address ?
B: y ?
T: I want to buy things, send to your place, wat’s ur address ?
B: wat r u buying ?
T: Dunno yet …no time check ebay yet
Hmmm, he memang caught me at the wrong time liow lah …..
B: wat lah u ! u r 2 much leh
B: dunno wat to buy, yet want me to bring back 4 u , never even tell me wat things
B: then u buy n buy n buy – all ship to me …..
B: sorry, limited luggage space
T: wat u bought ?
T: y no space ?
T: wat u bought leh ?
T: u bought dbx books , iz it ?
Hmmm, wait a minute, who is asking for favor ? do I owe him an answer of what I bought ? Does he needs to grant me permission ?
B: sorry dude, can’t help you
T : yuh
Frankly, I may be able to find ways to help if I wanted to , the choices are mine. Friends who know me, I will do my best if I can, if things don’t get into my way – sometimes to me, it is just ‘soon pin’ on the way kind of thing – and I’m more than happy to help. This trip, many friends politely asked me if I mind helping them ….. and so far – the answers were all yes. Average I go to Post Office 2 times a week – to collect all sort of items. This case today, Bahija may be sensitive, but I just don’t feel being respected. I just think he should nicely ask me if I can help him, instead of taking my address, reversed - ini 'push' strategy ..... sorry dude - Bahija is not keen in 'push' strategy - It irritated me. Am I rude ?