worrying.....

I got off from work earlier , went home at 3pm. That the bathing time for teddy bear, so I offered to bath him. I found out that there is a huge 'tumor' like thingy behind his head. For the past few weeks, I was trying to figure out why he refused to walk sometimes, he insisted 2 person walked side by side him, he put his hands on our shoulders, when he sits on the floor , he refused to stand up , instead he uses his butt to move around while sitting on the floor - these behaviours were abnormal to me. Last monday , sent him for blood test, mum suspected he could be having high uric acid which caused his leg pain ...blood test result uric acid reading was very good, only high cholesterol and high glukose. Now, seeing his 'tumor' , I am in panick mode, worrying about him ...... I really hope it's a false alarm. Teddy bear has suffers a lot from his seizures, please don't add more suffers onto him. In my mind, I started to think of all the nonsense , negative thoughts, made myself more worrying and cried and cried , gosh , that is not doing any good to me, have to stay positive , pray for him, to get to the right doctor and get to diagnose him asap....those of you who read this blog , please pray for me , pray for my brother Kim Chuan , pray that he is OK