high expenses

lately Bahija not happy with the mthly expenses .... the major culprit is the sweetie car la. Aiii , last time the previous sweety changed absorbers pun in hundreds. Now - I got a SHOCK in office when the service man called and told me it will cost me RM5000+ to change my absorbers. I stunt, all this years, in my mind - I only pay that amount to fix a car in an accident lor, never in maintenance punya lor ..... aii, I opted cheaper version, didn't do it at the original dealer service center, went to Ah Kow car repair center to get it done for RM 3000 ...still mahal for me ..... today, my right headlight light bulb rosak, went to check price - aiyuh , RM 95 to tukar light bulb ...again, I chicken out , will go see Ah Kow again, hopefully the cost is < RM 50 la, I just paid insurance and road tax today - total RM 1400 .... aiiii , thesesday very dahsyat, asyik aje pay 4-digits expenses ....

Bahija on air on BFM

Bahija was invited to BFM radio station, for a pre-recording session. I was invited as a caretaker for my epileptic brother, so I got a short air time to share my caretaker experience on my brother la ( on air ) ....it was very cool for me, at the same time, also very 'kat cheong' la , to me, I could have said better things la, but it's over , great memories. After the BFM session, the neurologist belanja I lunch, was very blessed to be able to spend 1 hour with the doctor. Of course being me - the kiasu sister, I always took opportunity to squeeze in my questions about my brother la ....doctor again told me, he reminded me years ago that medication will not work well for my brother, who has severe brain damaged. I challenged him and said "If there is a chance to improve his quality of life , such as reducing his seizure frequency, I will try my best to go for it...even though he is mentally challenged, he still deserve a better life ...." I felt like I was being prophesized over the lunch. Dr somehow said that everyone has a life purpose on earth, my brother is brought to this world having this epilepsy as well as mentally challenged, perhaps his purpose is just as simply as being who he is now , so that the people surrounding him can be affected. Dr said I am the one who gain the most, who learn more from him .... Wow, at that moment, it's too philosophical...but after some thought, it's true to some extents, thru him, indeed, I am a different person. I didn't tell him my side of story, here I want to say it out loud , thru my brother, not only do I gain something, I suppose I also give up a lot of things in my personal life ..... so it's complicated, hahahaha. Nevertheless, something is stirring within me , I don't know how the future will be for me .... but hope to walk thru it positively and END WELL. My pastor always said people tends to start well, but how many can end well .... I hope I make it to the 'end well' category, it's not easy .......

taking a break ....

Hi ALL :) After entering the workforce for 15 years, it is really great to have a small break. ( haa, not everyone has this opportunity leh ). Bahija completed her 3 years work contract, currently is taking a one month break - to relax, to run errants, to complete the outstanding personal tasks , to visit friends, to catch up with many things. Already enjoyed one week of break , so fast ....gosh, and enjoying every single moment. The only one still lack of dicipline is EXERCISE, out of 7 days, only exercised once, aiyuh. pengsan....

non stop rains right before CNY

weird things happening all around us , especially the weather.... here in KL, usually Jan, Feb are the hottest dry month, yet this year , it's a wet and cooling month....friends who came back from OZ said they loved the cooling weather here, it's very unusual, and now we are just 4 days before the CNY, the weather is still wet. Today, it has been raining since 5 am this morning ( I think la, i was still in dream land ) ...... non stop rains, wonder if some folks are moving away from the flooded area, kesian lor ....meanwhile, Bahija quickly took a nap which is filled with fresh negative ions, it's very nice ......this is a treat which make me very happy and refreshed.

kind offer ....

Every sunday morning, Bahija brings teddy bear to church, to attend the special children ministry aka special kids training. I am a co-teacher as well as a helper, and teddy bear is one of the student. This morning, as usual, we arrived at church around 8:45 am, I parked my car at the handicapped spot, then brought down the wheel-chair, then settled teddy bear. While doing this, a kind hearted gentleman purposely walked to me, and asked 'Do you need any help ?' ...he knew I was parking at a handicapped area with wheel chair, thus he came to offer his help....BUT BUT BUT this dumb Bahija , I was fast to reply 'no need, it's ok, thank you very much ....'. While I was walking to the class, I started to analyze...I think I should have accepted his kind offer, and let him help wheeled my teddy bear, since he was kind to ask ma ....but I didn't give face and quickly turned down his offer. See, situation like this, I should have enjoy the kind offer, macam la delegate the work a bit ...aiii - I told myself - in future, if I ever get an offer from a trustworthy person, I will be more than happy to say 'Yes, please ....' :)

past is past ....

A friend of mine said that his wife doesn't korek the old stories, if something happened in the past, she doesn't like to dig back and argue or talk about it , because what is past is past, can't do anything and not good to keep harping on it. I find that thinking or behaviour very good....today, I also told my mother that things / decisions we made in the past, let's just let go and no points of looking back and brought them out again.... we shall move forward and hope for the best ma :)

hi hi hi ....

Howdee , my exam was over 2 weeks ago :) , the first week after exam , I took time off for a movie, a body massage then a facial ..... super duper 'song' , time for my own pampering ma. Started another new course, it is child pyschology, very interesting ....as in I am learning the different theories, will blog about them later. Besides classes, assignments and practical training ( I have to go to the assigned special kid center for hads on training ). My work is also getting busy but it's fun, I enjoy doing my technical work, exploring new features, test or play with them, then share and teach the customers. I don't have to participate in office politics :) .....I'm just a simple small guli ....

my angelssssssssss

Case 1 - mid July , Bahija went to Penang for a mini vacation , stayed & spent most of the time 'idle' inside the cheap & cozy Tunes hotel. My kind kawan-kawan picked me for lunch, dinner and visit. It's very kind of them , fish and kancil - thanks so much! Kancil also tried to help me find a cheaper hotel at Batu Feringgi ( for my Hong Kong brother and his family ) - so kind of Kancil lor...

Case 2 - mid July also, I was busy trying to locate a cheaper hotel in KL - at the golden triangle area ....I called up my friend who is working at B-Kei. Wow, she helped me booked the B. Times Sq hotel - at 50% cheaper than the published rate , that's a good deal, big savings. Despite the hassle using her employee discount, had to be present while my brother check-in etc etc , my kawan blessed me with the wonderful savings ...

Case 3 - Aug, one evening I rushed home , online to seach for an optical store, wanted to get a new pair of spectacle for my nephew Benji....perfect timing, Ringgit im-ed me...after I shared my story, he recommended an optical store in 1U, plus he blessed us a RM50 cash voucher :) , ambui - happy lah .... we quickly rushed to see Ringgit and got the voucher, went to select the frame and bought it , cheaper by RM50 .... so hassle free, Benji loves his new gaya spec :)

Case 4 - on 09-09-2009 , 9:09:09 am - Bahija was on her bed praying to God , prayed for a few friends and family members....little did I know that - that time , something bad happened at customer site. Yet my customer was kind enough went ahead and solved the issue without calling me. After I went into the office at 10 am , logged on to the system, found out the issue, trying to diagnosed the root cause. We were soooo lucky that the table indexes were corrupted, coz it's easier to recover an index, then a table with sensitive data. Soooo Lucky lor.....Bahija reseached for root cause, online to this good I-kei website, there is a good tool to scan the system, I downloaded a version of it but wasn't sure if I downloaded it correctly ...thus pinged Ringgit, asked him helped me download in binary format. Today, I uploaded, installed, ran the tool , viola - there were many other potential issues in the system which is related to the production tax data. Ringgit - thank you so much for your trouble, your kind effort saved my customers from future hiccups , most of all, we want to solve them asap so that we can celebrate Raya peacefully, PLUS , Ringgit also helps the nation, helps to prevent more damages to the taxation data.

I Thank God for bringing my kind friends to assist me whenever I needed any help, I call them my angels. It's really a good thing to GIVE something to others, and allow others to enjoy, to have joy in their lives ..... Bahija appreciates the kind efforts from all my angels around me :) KAM SIAH !!!

IF .....

Lately, my lunches are more fun , as my ex-colleagues - the I-kei 's friends are working at the same customer site. hehe... I get to meet most of the 'gurus' that I've worked with while I was in I-kei. Today, I walked with a network guru to the carpark. Our conversation surrounded on good old times. He said IF I'm still with I-kei, today he may be reporting to me, I could be a manager handling 20 - 30 folks. Back then, I was identified as one of the successor , and put into the leader of the future program, I told my network guru that I'm happy for those opportunities given to me... until today, I've always appreciated all the trainings, opportunities , ups & downs I've gained from I-kei , which moulded me into where I am today :) , I really have no regrets for leaving I-kei, because that change was needed for me to taste yet another great moment in In-Kei.... Now, most of my same aged I-kei friends are managers, they are doing well :) , so IF I did stayed back , I think I could have made it there la :) .... today I am nobody, no one reports to me , a small fly - insignificant - hehehe. Yet I'm enjoying the lifestyle I like, flexible working hours ...IF I were to be in I-Kei, today I could be a monster, a bad-tempered or super busy woman or I could be a very successful career minded woman - whatever it is , I'm really happy for where I am now :) , there's no 'IF' , there's just 'WHEN' opportunity comes , seizes it !

differences

when I looked back at my life so far , I realized I usually hang out with female, my closet friends are all female usually ....right now, my working partners are 3 gentlemen. I started to observed the way they handle things, they way they react to situations ....it's good to know, because we are just 2 different spices, I'm still trying to learn how to work with men, how to communicate well with men. My partner, his dad is 77 yrs old. just 3 weeks ago , admitted to hospital, after all the scans, confirmed cancer... my partner is the 2nd son, he has 1 elder brother and 1 younger brother, just 3 sons in the family... after the tiring trips back and forth the hospitals and home town , he's back to work , still trying to settle his aging parent at kampung - it's time to think of alternatives, he cannot leave the 2 old folks living by themselves at the kampung.... when he shared his experiences, and the alternatives he wants to propose to his parent... I can sense that son and daughter react differently, somehow deep in my heart , it's good to have a daughter, female is more caring, and connect better with parent ( i think or at least for most of them kua ). Men indeed is logical , if then else with logic - then move forward. Women has more 'emotional' values, perhaps more sentimental ...this is just my 2 cents, of course not all are like this :) ....
While discussing with him, my brain juice also prompted me to start thinking about my mum and teddy bear , life is like this la , while my niece got her JPA scholarship, she's going to University , her Ah Yee me , is also aging and goin to mid-life stages , her grandma aka my mum lagi aging, she's so tiny now ( sudah kecut ) , my teddy bear is also aging ... there are many things to worry actually ... this topic is not new to me, been in my mind since I was young, am I ready for the chaotic moment one day , obviously NOT , given a choice - of course I wish mum and teddy bear live well & healthy forever ....yet I also learn that I can't stress myself on this 'yet' or why worry on something that I don't have a solution 'yet' .... for me, most important is try to cherish the moments I can have now .....

movie alone .....

Years ago, Bahija blogged about not able to go movie alone ...she only did that while she's out of town or overseas.... this is not true anymore, haha...perhaps aging process made her less 'thick face' ....tonight , Bahija watched a movie alone, it's quite a relaxing moment, simply because I didn't have to arrange with others , check who has time to watch, when to watch , wait for others, then dinner or drinks - if I were to go with a gang, the total movie time will probably take the whole night .... now I did it alone, at my convenient time .....Tonight, I seorang in the cinema watching a movie all by myself, kind of cool ....It's an international series, a lebanese movie titled 'Caramel' , a movie about a few women surrounding a Beirut beauty salon....eye opening for me , as I've never watched a Lebanese movie, didn't know that their language mixed with French punya , I only know caramel is used in dessert, it's a wax agent lah , in our country , the indian or some chinese folks use thread as threading - remove hairs from the face or eyebrow, in Lebanon, they use caramel, interesting. I also learned about 'vaginoplasty' ..haaa.... Some review said "Life for these women is not easy or especially fair, and each of them faces moments of humiliation, loneliness and potential heartbreak. But in the best melodramatic tradition, their toughness, good humor and loyalty see them through".... This AR smsed me, said hope I won't be like Aunt Rose, the seamstress ..... aii, the ending last scene hit me hard, of course I also hope that won't happen to me 'that way' .... wonder if I have any choice ......